A boring life!!!

Again, another week has passed!!! Yesterday I talked to Doruk and guess what, my feeling aint the same any more... Before I used to be so looking forward to talk to him and felt really happy everytime talking to him but since it's been over a month, I have not talked to him at all and yesterday we were chatting and I felt nothing... chat or not... doest matter... It was my feeling. I could not even believe it, it means that my feeling is already at the end of the road!!! I totally have no feeling with it anymore. Normally, whenever I view our photos, I really miss him but yesterday also had no feeling... just felt that it was a good memory to remember.

I start thinking whether I'm just too stress from my work or I really lost my feeling to him... I'm not sure though but anyways, I'm just really tired from this relationship... I have not seen him for over a year now... it's just way too much for me... I just can't handle the missing feeling anymore.. I just want to give myself a break from the matrix of relationship, it's been driving me insane so far!!! Guys are so hard to understand!!! Do not know what they are thinking!!!!!!

NOw I have to wait until he finishes his exam to end this relationship!!! SO TIRED OF IT!!!!!!!!! Soon... soon... it wil be over and I am so looking forward to a new life!!!!

It's about my love life, my work life is even worse hahaha... too depressing from work.. short of staff, crisis time.. too much work to do! Every week i work around 60 hours... it's hell too much! Everyday after work i feel so lost, do not know what to do, sometimes jux sitting infront of my laptop and staring at it and do not know what to do!!! What the hell!! Am I becoming a workaholic or what?? I dont know how long I can handle this situation, just looking forward for a holiday but do not have enough budget to travel far away!

Just 1 sentence... No comments about my life right now! Just do whatever I can for now!!!

Wish me luck!!