End or not?

Again, on this blog, Im writing what Im thinking in my mind about my relationship. It seemed that I've been using this page to pull-out all of my feeling and thinking which i suppose to tell my bf but I never get a chance to talk to him propoerly since we are apart. I feel that our relationship is just getting unclear day after day. Eventhough, I still really love him but I just cant stand anymore with his attitude, behavior and also they way he talks to me everytime he has exam... It's jux too much, he thought he understands me but he does not. Sometimes I just feel that I do not have any respect for me, like ' yeah, you love me, you have to accept the way I am, Im not going to change until I'm done with my uni' or 'ok, i will talk to u next time but I do not know when' that kind of attitude, I really cant stand anymore, It's been a year and it's jux getting worse and worse. I dont know whether u guys can stand not to talk w ur bf for a month or not but I can't. He said that he will marry me after uni, but just think, I wait for him but how much sure that we can get married right after his graduation? If he is not getting a good job then we are screw up as well. I just cant wait for him anymore..... I cant stand with the feeling of missing him all the time and not be able to talk to him!!!! I think this relationship need to be released!!!! It needs an ending!