Saturday 26 July 2008

Relationship is on the edge!

I and my bf had a talk the other day and he said that we should break up and stay friends, at that moment, i was so shocking and my heart felt painful so much... I cried alot , even though I know that he wouldnt have so much time for me in the future but I still believe in our love because I couldnt find any guy better than him, love me like he does. To be honest, It is really stupid for us to break up just because of distance and timing because I know that we love each other. Why 2 people loving each other cant be together??? Life is so unfair.... I was thinking about breaking up before but it will not work for me because If we break up, I dont want to talk to him anymore bcs everytime I talk to him I remember about the time we spent together and definately, I dont want to loose him and I dont want to stay friends.... I want to be his wife in the future... full stop!My best friend told me that this year is a breaking up year for those who is having Rat horoscope as it happened to her and her cousin, I hope it doesnt happen to me!!! We had 2 years of beautiful time together....!!! And those 2 years werent 2 easy year for both of us, I thought we are staying stronger and stronger, but now I dont know what he is thinking... Does he still love me??? Now I really hope that we can be together forever.... I wish that he knows how much I love him.... this is no lie... If i have to break up with him, I rather kill myself!.... life is so desperated without him! BABY, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! YOU ARE THE ONE IN MY LIFE!

Wednesday 23 July 2008

LIFE UPDATE!

It has been already 1 month since I start working at Park Hyatt Saigon, so far so good as people is treating me well over there. I made new friends and they are really nice people plus I got handsome and funny trainer though hahahahhaha.... Beside working, I got nothing to do, kinda boring life over here as well.... On the other hand, my bf is driving me crazy and insane, i thought that he could be free after exam to talk to me everyday and asking me, caring about but it's just my dream, he is apparently not free at all and we have no time to talk as he has to help his parents doing stuffs at home and all kind of excuses. I really cant stand with it, really fed up and just wanna give up with this relationship... My feeling is really S**** and all the time i have feeling that I am the only person who is supporting for this relationship, the only thing he could say is that 'nothing I can do'. What the F****!!! Gosh... tell me what I should do????? I am so so so tired!!!! please release me!