STRESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!

I've been workig in Sale department as a meeting services coordinator for almost a month now. People is fine but work aint fine as Im so new to the job, I made so many mistakes even I hv no comment about myself... so stressful, I hv to correct the contract like 10 times before sending..... until when I can get used to it.... Why is it so difficult for me??? Am I stupid???? hey ya... so stress!!!!!

Broken Heart and Waiting, dont know what to do!!

Last Sunday, there was a really terrible thing happened to me. Doruk broke up w me, i was terribly sad, nothing could describe it. My heart was broken into pieces, if my parents werent there, I would go crazy and might kill myself. I imagined if it happened to me when I was in UK, I didnt even want to know about the result, maybe i would kill myself. Eventhough Im w my parents, it seems nothing happened to me but its not true, deep in my heart...I dont know what goona happen, he said he is fed up w evverything and want to break up, but 2 days later, he called me and said that he misses me, so confused. I really dont want to loose him, I dont care how difficult our future will be, I still wanna be w him. I just love him too much to loose him. Now i just can finger cross for our relationship. I really wish that I am not vietnamese so that I can be together w him. I could do everything for him, if my parents have money, I would definitly apply for my Master degree in switzerland long time ago already, unfortunately, because of my family's situation, I cant be in Switzerland, so sth bad happened. I really dont know what to do.... If he really leaves me, I dont think that I can be w anyone else as it wasnt easy for us to be together and we managed for more than 2 years already, so why cant we keep it???? If we really break up, i prmise myself that I will never open my heart again because it will be a really hug crack in my heart...... When I see all the stuffs from him, i just cry and cry even i told myself not to cry but tears just drop down. I know myself how much I love him.... its really hard to say when u have true love. its sth really intangible!!!! I cant imagine him w another girl even we break up.. I just cant, the only possible thing is that we hv to stop talking and really delete everyting frm him..... OH GOSH, WHAT TO DO!!!!!!! :(( :((