To My Valentine

Now it’s 11:45pm of Wednesday 04 Feb 09 in Vietnam and I am still awake thinking of what to make you surprise on this 3rd valentine day of us. I was crying non-stop just 15 mins ago and I didn’t know the reason why and I could not event stop myself from that, after crying I feel much better. I know that you are enjoying with your new friends and do not want me to disturb you so much, therefore this is the only way I can only do since having less and less time for me now so I don’t really get a chance to tell you what I am thinking.

After the day you told me that you cannot come to Vietnam to visit me this time, I was totally disappointed and I don’t want to think about anything else, I felt that we are just so far away, I was trying so hard to apply for new jobs or looking for French course in any place in Europe to be closed to you but it seems to be so hard since I am a Vietnamese, noone will accept me to work, life is always unfair and especially to a person that is not outstanding like me.

I know you are still young and you want to enjoy life, but sometimes I just feel that you are just too selfish to think about only yourself. Every time I really miss you and want you to be there for me, listen to me, listen to my happiness and sadness but you were not available. I know there is a high jealousy in me with love, the love I have for you is just too big that I don’t even think about myself, all the time im thinking for US, bcs of this US, its killing me.

I just wish that you could understand me and ur heart beat the same tune with me. I really don’t know about our road, the road is just too narrow day by day…. Should I start forgetting you???? I still love you so much, how could I give it away… memories are still memories…. Love is still love; nothing can replace them……. You are one of the most important people in my life, w.o you I don’t know what to do….. I wish I have the ability to be near to you.

Everytime I said that Im so tired, just want to give up this relationship, I will not talk to u, I will not texting you but I cannot do it bcs the love from me is too big. I don’t know how much you love me but deep in my heart I do love you with all my heart.


Baby, I LOVE YOU!