Shocks and changes

It has been a while since last time I updated my little conner here. It's 1am now and I could not sleep, alot of things coming in my mind and inside of me, I feels sad. Today my good friend at work told me that he is leaving by end of next month, I was happy for him but on the other side, I may not see him for a very long time or maybe ever again.. we never know. He is always the person I could share anything at the office, always a good listener to me and advisor as well. I feel that I'm just loosing one of good friend everyday in my life. It's not easy to find good friends. Anyways, just wish him all the best.
Another thing makes me think is about work, tomorrow there may be a good or a bad change as the result of my new job offer is going to be happened or not. If it is happening, it gonna take me to another era.... Don't know what gonna take me to but it's a new adventure... What the heck! Let's see what gonna happen tomorrow. My office, my job now is just a mess... no people, I have so much pressure and I actually do not give a damn thing about it bcs it's out of my control now. I just really hope that I can get a new job now so that my mind is clear.
3rd thing makes me upset a bit is about my ex, I always take the sentence for granted ' whatever happens, you are always still very important to me'. But what the heck (yeah, again)! I know for sure he almost forgot my bday, he rememberd just bcs he saw everyone wishing my bday. I might just expect to much from that person, it seems to be cleared now... ' MOVE ON WOMAN, HE AIN'T URS ANYMORE, SO GROW UP'... Yeah, I have to tell myself in that way so that I don't feel upset...:)) just such a kid I am!!! We probably will never ever gonna see each other again in my life, so why I should bother if that person don't care. Expecting a text msg but I got a wish on facebook which is so ordinary as the others, therefore the answer is ' LILY, YOU ARE JUST AN ORDINARY EX GF, SO DON'T EXPECT MORE IF YOU ARE NOT THE ONE ANYMORE'

Life is cruel! Never thought that the crack could be that big impact to me... I do not know until when I can wake up from that sleep and get healed again.